Tripping the Light Fantastic

Tonight was the first time in about 6 weeks that I went ballroom dancing. I'm glad I went - I need to keep up those rudimentary skills! hehe. It was also the costume party, and I broke out my usual cat outfit - black catsuit with tail sewn on, and ears. I look good in it - though you can't see much actual skin, you see pretty much everything. I got lots of compliments on it, and some "nice tail" jokes. I expect to get more of those tomorrow at the halloween parties I'm going to. Dancing was fun, but my body hurts from pretty much the neck down after soccer... ribs especially. It's funny, most people wouldn't be able to tell just by looking at me that I am not the ideal 120-130 pounds for my height (5'6"). Especially the shallow fuckers on Craig's List who think that any woman over 150 pounds is fat without considering height and how sturdy her frame is. I'm a shapely 8 and don't have a lot of body fat - I'm pretty bony in all the places that tend to indicate fat (wrists, neck, waist, pelvis/hips). But I have a good-sized frame and legs that are mostly muscle from years of running and now biking. And despite my general lethargy in the last 3 years, I have been blessed to have not really put on any weight. I just don't gain much or lose much. There isn't much to lose anyway unless I force my body to start "eating" muscle. I'm probably just shy of 150, maybe more toward 140. But you couldn't tell by looking... The whole body image thing is a real head job. People need to learn to be confident in the skin they are in. We should want to exercise for fun and for health - not to look like some crazy idealized version of a glorified stick. The important thing is to always keep a healthy self-image, even when you put on a few pounds. If you lose your head, you lose the war with weight. A little fat is actually good for some people. Gaunt is never attractive, in my opinion. Love thyself, treat thyself well - and your best self will come. Your best self may not be society's skewed ideal, but it will be healthy and strong. With confidence, it's devastatingly sexy. Go US!