Siryn's Song

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

A Random Date?

Call me crazy. So here I am strolling through CL again and come across something totally random - a guy that wants a true blind date. Zero information on the person. I have seen one of these ads requesting a true blind date before. And I resisted it the first time.... I couldn't resist it this time. So I responded. I guess we'll see if: a. he responds; b. he agrees to meet me at the place I've picked; and c. this turns out to be one of the most fun adventures I've had in a long time. I have met a couple of folks from CL and they are nice people. One guy is pretty sweet and has started coming to ballroom dancing with me on Friday nights. Another one will come but I have to pick him up. I'm not thrilled about diverging off my beaten path to go up to Dupont Circle to get him, but he's nice and he's a good dancer. Another guy is out in Leesburg, VA and is a pool shark. Oh, the first guy that comes dancing with me is a pool shark too! Met another guy that is new and in Arlington. He's pretty nice. Are these people dating material? I don't know. Most are not my physical type, but looks only go so far, you know. The good dancer has a girlfriend, and that's cool. The others? *shrug* Right now I'm looking more to just surround myself with good people and see what happens. I am on a quest to keep my expectations low, but be pleasantly surprised. Every time that I have found something in a relationship that approached something meaningful, I was surprised. And of those, only 1 got to meet the parents. I have high standards for myself, and what I expect out of a person that I intend to marry. The standard is not as high for friends, as: a. I don't have to live with them; b. they won't raise my kids for me; and c. they are, ultimately, just human. My partner, however, needs to be a little more perfect for me. I just have a vision of what I want, and I don't feel like settling. I am prepared to be alone for a long time, because it is better to be alone and lonely than to be in a relationship and lonely. Of course it's better to not be lonely at all - and strangely enough, sometimes I feel less lonely as I go on - but you make do with what you have. I'm not getting any younger, but I'm not going to rush myself into something that could be poisonous to my life later on down the line. I (kinda) don't care if my ovaries atrophy; I can always be a loving mother because I'm willing to adopt. So anyway... back on topic... I'm going to attempt to go on a totally blind date and see what happens. Do I really want to date this guy? For Wednesday night, yes. Beyond that? Giddyap, horsie, go catch up with that cart. P.S. How is this different from the nondescript guy? This is posed as a challenge to end boredom, instead of just being freaking lazy and sounding hollow.

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