Breaking down

Some days it feels like the world is on your shoulders. Today, I did not make all of my goals at work, and I just felt this anxiety welling up. Maybe it is just everything, all of the stress that I've been under lately and putting myself through, why I just wanted to cry. It was just hard to put things into perspective and let go. I care about our clients and they shouldn't be billed for the times when I am incompetent. But I need to make my billables too. It's just ridiculous. Murphy was a real bitch today. On a positive note, a long-lost CL guy wrote back to me. I may meet him soon. He seems nice and his writing exudes a fun and positive aura. He's also willing to help me refresh my spanish and my portuguese. Would be nice if he was cute, of course, but in the meanwhile I could really use a friendly new face to bring lightness and positivity into my life. Sometimes I feel so negative; I generally call it realism, but sometimes it's just pure negativity. Anyway, I'm home and I feel the need to lay down. Stress plus lack of sleep isn't a great combination. Let's see what I can do about one of those. Check ya later.