Oops?

I have been having this delightful banter back and forth with this guy from CL for the last couple of days. He's a professor at one of the local universities (no, I won't say which). Anyway, it's been fun up to this point... where I think I blew it. I googled him. And to make matters worse, I told him that I googled him. I have never met him. I don't know what he looks like. I didn't know what university he was teaching at; I had to search and find it and figure out which person he was. From there I found some of the things he has written. And wow, he's got some serious intellectual tastes. Plus he also seemed like the kind of guy you would want to be your professor - cool, realistic, responsive to students. I subjected myself to reading a 30+ page synopsis of the premise of a book he's written. I am intrigued, and it is an interesting theory that has very serious merit. I'm tempted to agree wholeheartedly, but I haven't read it entirely, nor have I read another author's response to his thesis. So... what was a nice bit of banter may have ground to a halt. I won't apologize for being fascinated. He sounds like a great guy, someone I would enjoy getting to know better and keeping as a friend, at the very least, if not more. But my curious nature got the better of me. Make that my curious nature combined with my big mouth. In truth, I am seeking a connection. I want to touch the most passionate part of a person's being, so I can see how they work and understand motivations. It's not a malevolent thing - it is just a way for me to relate and to knit ties that bind myself and someone else together. It allows me to use my innate intuition to sense what they need, what they desire, to know what their logical response to stimuli might be. So in my enthusiasm to connect with this person on a deeper level, I may have squashed the whole thing. That would blow. I hope it's not squashed. He is fun to talk to. I can be me, and not have to dumb down my conversation. I can actually be challenged to be bigger than I may want to be at any given moment. I can learn and enjoy it from a pleasant source that also loves learning. I hope it's not gone. If it is gone, then it was not meant to be, and that's okay - I'm not into ephemeral connections. Be it friends or lovers, I want things that are built to last. And if someone is scared off by my enthusiasm ... well, I am a patient woman, and God provides.