Siryn's Song

Friday, October 28, 2005

Maybe Next Year

I have a wonderful idea for a costume for Halloween - but won't get to wear it because I am staying in town this weekend so that I can make sure my billing is straight. Plus I'm too GD tired, and I'm not inclined to go out by myself among strangers right now. Sigh. I wanted to go as Sydney Bristow from Alias. I have the red wig like she wore in the Alias premiere. All I needed to do was get a realistic-looking gun, and it would have been ON. Maybe next year. Why the hell am I so anti-social? This is not like me. As much as I try to resist, the stress is having a very serious effect on me. My motivation is in the absolute toilet - motivation for personal goals, anyway. I am focusing so much on the job that I am becoming unbalanced. And balance is the one thing I have always sought in my life. I don't want to lose myself; I merely want to become my best self. Maybe I need to force myself to take care of the personal side. Maybe next week.

posted by Siryn at 10/28/2005 11:47:00 PM

6 Comments:

  • You aer in New York...I doubt you would have had a hard time finding a realistic looking gun! hee hee

    Anyway, don't put so much pressure on yourself. Give yourself a break. You don't have to search for balance...life is already balanced...you just have to open your eyes and acknowledge it. *smile*

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10/29/2005 11:48:00 AM  

  • I had a great idea this year too. My roommate and I were too lazy though.

    Eh, maybe next year.

    Halloween is overrrated.

    By Blogger Asian Mistress, at 10/30/2005 09:52:00 PM  

  • well happy halloween anyway!

    By Blogger VP of Dior, at 10/31/2005 08:03:00 PM  

  • Balance is good. But sometimes you have to lose yourself in one facet of your life, to find yourself for all areas in your life.

    By Blogger sethro, at 11/01/2005 06:38:00 AM  

  • I am going through the same thing. I am lacking motivation in just about everything. I doubt I would have done anything this past weekend had my costume not been made for me and I was essentially, but happily, ordered to comply. I think its the change in seasons. I've read about it in a few blogs. So hang in there!

    By Blogger Dop T, at 11/02/2005 03:12:00 AM  

  • Thanks, guys. It's only Halloween, anyway. It's just that it offends my partying sensibilities to be so tired and so heavily obligated!

    By Blogger Siryn, at 11/04/2005 12:16:00 AM  

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