Wednesday

Tonight, I left work a little early (7 is early - ha!) to come home and go shopping with my roommate. I bought a couple of things - a beautiful winter-white 3/4 length suede coat with light-colored faux fur lining, a full-length raincoat, and some proper jewelry. The white coat is an indulgence, sorta - it's warm and beautiful. Its beauty makes it feel like an indulgence, but the leather coat I have is not really enough for the winter that's coming. It's more professional-looking, that's for sure. The raincoat is a necessity. The jewelry is gorgeous - a necklace and 2 pairs of earrings. The necklace is a choker composed of sterling silver beads, with a few beads crusted with pavé-set crystals interspersed at the front. One set of earrings is a pair crusted bead studs, to match. The other is a simple pair of crescent hoops with crystals channel-set into the silver. It's simple, elegant, and gorgeous. It's not gaudy at all, and not too dressy for work. I don't have much good jewelry, and by and large, I'm not a jewelry freak. But a girl should have some proper jewelry, something other than the cosmetic jewelry you can find in any old department store. I chose silver because it looks better on my skin than gold; it really complements my complexion. So, after I went yet again and spent way too much money, I came home to watch Lost. By now, West Coasters should have seen it so I won't feel too bad. If not, they are busy watching it and will find out later. Regardless, I'm not torn up that Shannon died. It's a horrible shame, considering that Sayid had just told her that he loved her and would never leave her. I just never found Shannon to be particularly interesting; maybe she just whined too much for my tastes. I was far more torn apart when Boone died. It's so bad that I cannot imagine that actress, Maggie Grace, playing my favorite X-Man, Shadowcat (Kitty Pryde), in X3. She had better not murder my favorite character, or I'm going to be really pissed at Marvel!! It's bad enough they let Bryan Singer off the hook. What the hell are they thinking? I'm very scared for the X-Men franchise. At least Hugh Jackman (can I get a 'Yum! Yum!'??) is doing a solo Wolverine movie. Now THERE is something to look forward to. So... I worked, I spent too much money, and I watched tv. Now I just need somewhere decent that ISN'T work to wear this stuff, and someone decent to go with! My roommie's funny; she's like another mom, but not quite. She's very sassy and youthful for her age, and we can have fun. She was saying that she hopes I have a boyfriend by the new year, so I can wear all my nice stuff to go out. Nice thought. I'm just not mentally ready for it, I suppose. It's not like my dear friend Sethro's alleged fear of commitment. Kinda, but not. You see, if I was truly motivated to go out there and find a guy, I would do it. Your actions speak so much louder than words, and while they may not reveal intent all the time, they can make a few things clear. Like, if you really are deluding yourself into thinking that you can't commit but stop dating other people, your actions mean more than what you say. Luv ya, Sethro. Really. :) People want what they want, and will go after the things that they REALLY want. It's just that simple. For me, right now, I can't be bothered. The whole committed thing is a nice thought, but probably not going to happen unless he literally hits me upside the head. Takes too much energy, and I'm heavily conserving mine now. It's easier to do something like go out for boredom-breakers with random people than work on a lasting relationship. I haven't even done THAT yet! I'm just not there, and it's just the way it is... until my heart's desire changes and I make a concerted effort to take more risks on people and put myself out there. When you want something bad enough, you will do what it takes to get it. That is just human nature. And that's all - human nature is telling me to get some f'in sleep, since I have to be in court in the morning. Woo! Peace.