Grieve

My brother and his wife decided not to have the twins. I know how awful I feel. I can't come close to imagining how they are feeling. In my mind's eye, I can see them... I imagine them as fraternal, a little boy and a little girl... with large, luminous eyes; chubby, fleshy cheeks; soft, curly hair; the most delicate hands and feet; and smiles that make you melt inside. I think of them... and I can't see. The reasons for the decision are various and personal, and I don't feel like discussing it here. I will just end this with this song, Giving You Back, by Robyn. In another time, another life in another situation I would have made you mine, would have taken time out to make sure you'd be fine I could feel you coming, I knew you would but I never imagined you'd be so good and it hurts me so to let you go I want you to live but I'm not all I wanna' give Right now nothing can be right, right now nothing can be wrong all I can do is keep believing that life goes on and on I'm giving you back, to the ocean I'm giving you back, to the stars I'm giving you back, to where you came from but I'm not forgetting who you are With you in me I was beautiful two months of joy, before the impossible every second I long for the day when you come back, come back to stay when the time is right, when there's no wrong I'll be there for you and I'll be strong and I promise I'll be all I can be I'm still open if you still want me Right now nothing can be wrong, right now nothing can be right all I can do is keep believing that life goes on and on You made me see a lot clearer heaven is not that far one day i hope to be closer to be as pure as I know that, I know that you are