Day 13

Here I am, on the cusp of 2 weeks of this ad. I have a small handful of people that I'm talking to. I have had 3 very pleasant conversations in the last 3 days. I don't know what 2 of them look like. Also add 1 more guy, whom I haven't been able to complete a good conversation with due to technical/time issues... I'm going to let him down over the phone. I answered his ad, but I'm not feeling something with him... something is off. I think he's too preoccupied with his sexuality to achieve what I want to achieve here. He is a Christian that has sort of "fallen off the wagon" and doesn't feel he can get back on until he finds a wife. hoooooboy. That's a host of issues that I don't want to deal with. Plus it doesn't help that I am, by and large, NOT attracted to him. In the words of the wonderful Rob Thomas and Matchbox Twenty:

I don't want to be the crutch One step away from down I don't want to be the crutch One step away from down, down, down

So, there, I think, is the kiss of death - just too many issues. I don't want issues right now. I don't have time or energy to deal with people's issues right now. I could end up missing a good man, but timing counts for a lot more than most people think. If you are not mature enough for a person that comes into your life, you can't force yourself to change - you just have to do it. If it's going to work out, it will - but not necessarily in the near future or in this iteration with that person. If the roots were good enough, it would flourish. I don't believe, however, in nourishing weeds - even if they are Dandelions. Time to go drop the axe.